kwn saya tiada lagi.........

monday petang (2 ogos), lps balik drpd psr mlm, my sister called me..........she told me very shocking news, that my friend passed away, accident ........ xtau apa yg saya rasa, mcm xpecaya pn ada.........
so, my husband said we should go back home.......


along the way, i keep thinking, and thinking.........hp keep ringing, calls by frens who also knows her.......
smpi umah dh pkl 10 mlm...........kereta dh byk parking dpn umah...........di umah my frens pn dh ramai org bacakan yasin...........


me n my frens is quite close, especially masa sek.rendah.........umah pn dekat, selang satu umah je.........
time sek menengah xsama, tp masa dip dpt tpt yg sama di itm sgmt............walaupn xsama kolej, tp slalu jugak singgah bilik memasing...........balik kg pn kdg2 sama, kdg2 tumpang balik dgn bapak dia..........


so, bila smpi umah, my sister cerita she's actually on the way back home after attending kursus since friday.......maybe kursus tu involved xtvt fizikal, n she's kind of exhausted n sleepy when driving home menyebabkan bertembung dgn lori...........sy ada sket rasa nk meyalahkan modul kursus yg sgt tight yg menjadi punca xcukup tido, ngantuk dan keletihan...........


masa sampi mlm tu jenazah still lg kt hosp...........only esoknya br post mortem, mandi dan kafan, dan dibawa ke kg senama............i went there, tgk jenazah utk kali terakhir............dan air mata xdpt tahan lg........
what i notice during that day, her face xpucat pun, n the wheather pn xbrapa panas, mendung sket.........lps je majlis kebumi, cuaca panas balik spt hari2 biasa ...........sume urusan berjalan dgn baik dan dipermudahkan.......mudah2an dipermudahkan juga perjalanannya di alam sana......... 


after kebumi, terus siap2 nk blk sgmt plak..........during this stay, mmg xsempat langsung nk jupe family arwah.......all the way back, air mata mengalir juga..........bila selisih dgn bas, teringat dulu penah tiket bas nk balik raya abis........dan ktorg berdua sanggup amik bas sambung2 utk balik umah.......
payung kt dlm keta pn kirim dgn arwah dan dia yg belikan............
too many memories..............smpi skrg pn air mata akan bergenang bila teringat..........